bouncing back

I'm slowly turning back into my old self again. 

Yesterday I weighed in at 51 kg (or 52 after dinner, lawl) which is back at my 'normal' weight again. Finally. 

I also got rid of my candy-munching, I stopped drinking almost completely and I started working out. Yesterday I also went to the gym (!) with T. I'm very, very proud of myself.

One of the main things I'm happy about is that I told myself that when I'm back on my normal weight I can dye my hair back to blonde, which I've missed heaps.

Now on my list is surviving Christmas and pass my exams.

play it safe

Things I can't live without atm.

• Läkerol: 2-4 kcal/piece, and there's so many different flavors to try! My favorite so far is Salmiak, but I haven't tried much different ones - yet.
• Naturdiet meal bar: 200-220 kcal/bar. Since I have class from 1-4 pm, I have bring lunch to school. Except that I'm lazy and I don't wanna buy stuff from the cafeteria every day, there's these meal bars that are surprisingly really good and quite filling. Dark Chocolate is the best one I've tried yet.
• Sugarfree Powerking: 10 kcal/can. I wonder what I would do without caffeine...
• PoWorkout: An app I bought a while ago, which contains different, short workout sessions you can basically do anywhere. I was surprised to say I was sore the first few days of training, which proves that it works, and each workout only takes a couple of minutes :)

(Note: I don't have the time or energy to go to the gym. Or willing to spend money on a gym card. Plus, every time I've been to a gym I feel like there's too much people, all looking at you, judging you. I kind of feel like a hamster in a huge cage where everyone runs on those big wheels, whilst trying to sneak a peak at the others to see how they are doing. No. *shudders*)

Oh well, now the sun is out and I'm going to the library to study. Ttyl bitches.

young blood

Random pic from this morning. Stripes all the way, baby.

Well, all I can say is that things are certainly improving.

After weeks of chaos, colouring my hair (?!), eating too much, drinking too much (and otherwise spending my time staring at my ceiling, wondering what the hell I'm doing with my life) 

- I'm finally back on track.

+ November is finally soon over

+ I'm finally getting a grip on my Mandarin studies

+ Had a great weekend away from everything and I got to spend it with the cutest boy in the world

+ My food intake is slowly getting better (however I'll make my diet more strict after Christmas/New Year's)

- It's getting colder & darker

- I still have no clue what to do after January

Well. One thing at a time I guess.

200 km/h in the wrong direction

pro ana party slama 

(Do. Not. Get it? 

Seriously, who sells these t-shirts? I just had to buy it. Had to.)

Oh, and I'm alive. Barely.
But I'm alive.

i'm a wolf in sheep's skin

pic: we heart it

(Picture makes me wanna kill the skinny bitch and steal her shoes. And bag. Just sayin'.)

So far, so good. Did some running in the morning, but not far at all. I didn't really any route planned, so I thought it was much more far than it really was. So when I got home I did some quick studying before school and then I worked out with my 1.5 kg hula hoop for 20 min (burned some extra calories!).

Tomorrow I'll do the same route but maybe add some distance by taking a detour or something. 

Anyway, it's a start. Like my teacher always says, you've gotta crawl before you can walk.

Now I'm home from school and I was planning on studying but got stuck behind the computer. Going to get started soon. Anyway, food intake for today is;

• Breakfast: 1 cup of coffee, 1 dl oates porridge & 1/2 apple. Plus a glass with one of those fizzy mixes that only contains extra vitamins & iron.
• Lunch: Approx. 50 g mixed nuts and 1 big cup (my Starbucks tumbler) with coffee.
• Dinner: ? (I don't know yet, still deciding).

Yeah, my lunch sucks, however it's hard for me to eat a proper lunch because it collides with my uni lectures (which is from 1pm - 4pm, Monday-Thursday) so I try to squeeze in a snack and some caffeine.

Now I need to fix dinner somehow and get started on my Mandarin. 再见!

bootycalls & fuckbuddies

I should actually be studying or working right now but my brain feels fried from last night so instead I'm watching my favourite show, Supersize vs Superskinny. And later on I'm going to the movies with T, we're watching 'Friends With Benefits'.

I don't have high hopes for this, since it seems to be exactly the same story as 'No Strings Attached', which I really enjoyed, but it was released only months ago.

Ah well. I've finally finished working, too. Feels great to not have to go to bed at 8 PM every night. Yay!

i'm anah skywalker. savvy?

Celebrated my final lesson for the week with picking up some sushi after school. 

Best. Dinner. All. Week.

Also, 2 nights of sleep & I'm already better.
Working tonight though, but I know I can make it. 

I work hard & play harder. I beat sickness & flu with a whiff of my hand. I break hearts but mend them again with a quick smile and a twinkle from my blue/green eyes.

My name is Anah-fucking-Skywalker, and I always win.

boo, you whore

I'll tell you: Working nights, studying all day and being sick does not go together. Ugh. *snivels and coughs*

Whatever. Off to uni it is. I might have to call in sick tonight because I can't breathe through my nose. Plus I'm fairly sure I have a fever.

say ni hao, and farm some gold

I'm sorry for some bad updates, but I will be off the grid for the next two weeks as well. 

Not only am I working nights 6 times/week, but also uni has started and I'm studying, as you can see, mandarin chinese. What the hell was I thinking?

Anyway, just two weeks left of work. Two weeks, 12 times, I can handle this. I can.

看到您的到来！

l.i.f.e.g.o.e.s.o.n.

Well, that week went by fast.
I've been terrible at updating, so here's some pics to show you what I've been up to...

• My sister turned 19, so we went and had Greek food, and I had chocolate truffel for dessert. It was delicious - and not too much on the plate so it was perfect. Even though I did feel a bit bad about it.
• Next is my new favourite (and easy) lunch: Omelette made in the microwave.
  (Just add 2 eggs, 2 tablespoons of milk, some pepper, mix, microwave for 1 min, mix again, add another 1 min in the microwave. Done! Easy and fast.)
• Finally, this is me today. Tired, shabby and still in bed. Planning on lying there all day, not in the mood for my daily exercise to be honest. I feel really beaten up for some reason.

I do kind of feel bad for not following my diet plan and not working out, but in all honesty I don't care right now. I work 6 nights/week where I walk for 3½ hours and run up & down approx. 45 flights of stairs. I think I've got at least some of my needed exericse sorted.

Now, back to my book and then I need to plan dinner for tonight. (The big question in my life - What can I/can't I eat?)